Ashamed of Being Yourself

This morning I was remembering an incident where I was insulted for listening to Turkish music. Some years back, a classmate of mine was going through my iPod and he came across Arabic and Turkish music so he joked about it. Lo and behold some girl who gave me a lot of attitude(for no reason) and never spoke to me,chimed in on how I should be relocated to another university because I think I’m better than everyone. What the f*&^? Seriously??? And this is the same attitude that surrounded me most of my life and I had to hide who I really was so people wouldn’t pick on me.

It’s supposed to be normal to be interested in different things or be passionate about different things from the majority of people around you. Some of us are comfortable in our box and some of us see the universe as our box. Everyone is just a different flavor in a melting pot. At least that’s how I see it.

For as long as I can remember I have been bashed for something or the other, my taste in music, the clothes I wore, the way I think etc. I honestly felt like something was wrong with me. I was like a square trying to fit into a circle. I was always alone among friends and family. I wished I did a crash course on how to deal with mean people, maybe I would’ve handled things better.

Eventually I became ashamed of expressing myself and the things that I was interested in. The sad thing about hiding who you are, you will never get full satisfaction.You will never be contented with yourself. As long as you are deceiving your heart, life will always be unbearable.

As time passes, you should learn to appreciate your differences. It makes you, you! It makes you stand out and that is a good thing. We are all born original, we shouldn’t turn into copying machines. The important thing is to always stay true to yourself. You will be surprised to know a change in the people you surround yourself with will make room for others who are accepting of you and who you are. In the end, people will judge you anyway so be happy and do what makes you happy. Never be ashamed of who you are because you don’t fit in with a bunch of closed minds.

xo Kat

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